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Antidepressant

A pill I take

The only way for me to feel happiness

I long to not need this capsule

The way to free myself from the darkness

With this pill light enters

But I know these emotions are not from me

As I sit in the dark I know this is truth

Even in the emptiness of darkness silence eludes me

I hear myself my true self

The self that the pill pushes away

He says I cannot escape

He knows my every thought

But I know not of his

A fiery heat holds me in its grasp

I try to make it leave my mind

But when I do it reminds me of my past

He grasps my heart and keeps everyone out

You might say that this evil darkness might fade

But the memory of him will always haunt me and stay

Antidepressant 2

He is still there

He speaks to me still

He tells me of a love I have lost

A love I want to come back to me

Why does he torment me

Why does he like to see me suffer

Reminding me of the promises of love

A kiss I shared with the ones I loved

I have shared this kiss but twice

He tells me that a Third chance will never be found

Like the others the ones to come will push me away

The one in the dark corner of my mind

It swirls in the shadowy space of my mind

He watches the world with the same eyes as me

I hear him chortle

He laughs at my life

He loves my misery and is entertained by my sadness

He lives inside this miserable boy

I long for my freedom

The chance to break his chains

But he get stronger with each of my pains

He ties me to the misery and chains me to my regrets

He makes the suffering last

For he tells me I have no future

And reminds me of the evil and pain of my dark past